Tuesday, March 12, 2024

Random

 Hi guys, assalamualaikum. 

Aww aishah memberi salam. Haha.

Harini first day ramadan untuk 2024. Aku dekat office tak buat apa apa. Nak elakkan mengantuk and fikir pasal lapar punya hal, aku log in blog. Nak nampak acah acah busy sikit lah kiranya ni. Hahaha. Takde apa nak update, hanya sekadar nak membuang masa. So bagi lah aku type je apa yang rasa sekarang ni. Haha.


Tadi aku saja buka blog private aku yang lama, last post pasal Aiman Ariffin. Literally title dia Aiman Ariffin. Aku buat post tu masa 2018. Cerita how i'm madly in love with Aiman after 4 years bercinta. Haha today, 10 tahun kenal each other, 3 tahun berkahwin, aku masih madly in love with him. Macam tak percaya, boleh sayang dan disayangi macam ni sekali. Haha lepastu aku teringat semalam, masa aku tengah dekat dapur nak masak untuk dinner. Aiman sampai rumah from work, sambil dia buka jacket and unbutton his shirt, sumpah aku rasa handsome nak mampus suami aku ni. Hahahaha teruk dah aku ni. 


Lepastu sekarang aku dekat office, aiman dekat office. Kita rindu. hahaha rindu Tasneem juga walaupun sekarang dia nakal suka baling barang! 😤. Ko tahu, malam tadi dia tengah seronok main main dengan remote aircond, lepastu tetibe datang dekat aku hempuk dahi aku dengan remote aircond tu. Sakit nak mampus, aku gurau gurau lah nangis (walaupun ternanes sikit sebab memang sakit), pastu dia cuba la nak pujuk gelak gelak sengih sengih. Aku tak layan. Hahaha aiman masuk bilik, dia nampak aku tengah nangis, dia pandang aiman pastu dia nangis juga! KEMAIN EH KEKECIK DAH PANDAI PLAY VICTIM! hahaha. Tapi aiman peluk ittew dulu wekk. Haha maka makin kuat lah beliau menangis dan akhirnya senyap dan happy lepas aiman dukung dia. Dasarrr


Lahh tetibe terpanjang ye menaip nya. Oke jadi lah satu post setelah sekian lama tak buat post. Hahaha bertemu kembali di episode yang akan datang xD. Selamat berpuasa semua!

Sunday, July 24, 2022

Pregnancy Journey

Hi, assalamualaikum.

Ehem, from merajuk dengan aiman (from last post) sekarang tetibe dah ada pregnancy journey siut. Hahaha. Siapa sangka my life already at this phase. Sudah berkahwin, mengandung dan dah sudah lahir juga baby nya. Jangan risau, the father of my baby is still the one and only Aiman Ariffin yang saya sayangi dan cintai sepenuh hati. Haha. Actually aku tengah dilemma nak cerita pasal pregnancy journey ke giving birth experience. Sebab kalau cerita pasal giving birth je nanti punca and reason kenapa bersalin macam tu takde pulak. Tiber, macam lah ada orang nak baca and kisah ye dak. Hahaha but who cares, i'm writing here for myself to read in the future as a memory. Ala macam aku baca post yang lama lama juga. Gitchew. 


Since aku takde post pasal wedding, so terpaksa la buat a little bit summary about that before jump into the pregnancy journey. Haha ewah. So, 24 February 2021 tarikh aku nikah dengan Aiman. A very small solemnization ceremony for close family and friends only. About 50 orang jemputan je during that time sebab covid still here. Yep, we were still in pandemic during that time. All i can say, that ceremony tersangat lah intimate and really jimat ye rakan rakan. Haha i'm not regret at all sebab buat small ceremony je, in fact lagi happy sebab lepas nikah i dont have to think banyak pasal duit. But ya, since it's last minute plan (sebab plan asal nak kahwin on June 2021) so life after kahwin tu memang bukan macam orang lain lah. Haha i'm staying with in laws and tak menyewa pun sebab belum habis plan. But alhamdulillah we both happy. Takde masalah. Know know already 1 year++ staying with ibu and ayah Aiman. So lepas nikah, we have a plan nak ada baby mungkin in 2-3 years later lah sebab yelah a lot of things need to plan and arrange first. Tapi kita hanya mampu merancang......
After 10 months we've been married, kitorang dah seronok hidup berdua, jalan sana sini. Aku siap dah kerja, menganggur, dapat kerja lain lepas tu menganggur balik haha know know there's another life live in my stomach. 

I still remember that day, malam tu aku teman aiman main badminton dekat Subang. Then, aku rasa tak sedap badan like macam nak demam. Lepastu selalu rasa penat and letih. So i told Aiman, nak buat pregnancy test as period aku pun almost 1 weeks late. Why boleh terfikir nak buat pregnancy test instead of pergi klinik check demam biasa je? haha haa ni kanak kanak tak boleh baca. Hahaha dah kahwin kan?! Mestilah kau tahu bila kau accident and bila tak. So we both know there's one day yang kitorang accident and dah gaduh dah the day after nak amik pill or not. But Aiman said, no need lah because baru sekali ye dak sepanjang kahwin mana mungkin sangkut kalau sekali je. Gitcheww. TAPI DIA SILAP. DIA TAK TAHU KITORANG DUA SUBUR AF. Hahahahaha. So balik balik from main badminton tu, aku dah tak keruan nak buat test. Aiman balik terus mandi apa semua dulu, aku terus buat test tu tak tunggu dia sebab aku cuakzzz hahaha. And yeah, ada double line. Aku cam tak boleh nak process. Double line? Aku duduk termenung dekat tepi katil tunggu Aiman habis mandi. Aiman masuk je bilik after mandi tu, air mata aku dah berjurai jurai dah. Aiman cuak. Haha dia tanya kenapa. Aku tunjuk test kit tu and bagitahu it's positive. First sentence aiman, "kenapa you tak tunggu i nak test?". Hahaha ala bongok. Lepastu he hugged me and we both hugged in silence for like 5 minutes kot sebab aku pun tengah teresak-esak. A lot of things in my mind. But yang paling utama of course, TAK READY. 

Aku dah tenang sikit, aiman tanya, "so sekarang macam mana?". Masa tu tengah still in shock, laju je aku cakap "i tanak mengandung" keluar daripada mulut aku. Aiman tak terkejut pun sebab memang aku dah banyak kali cakap bukan sekarang. Haha but beliau sangat tenang ye, aku pun tak tahu dia tu apahal boleh tenang dalam semua situasi. Tapi that night memang terasa sangat panjang, and aku tak boleh tidur sebab we both decide nak confirmkan dulu dekat klinik esok then we'll see how. Esoknya, around 11am kitorang pergi nearest klinik untuk buat confirmation. And yes, i'm already 5 weeks pregnant tapi only ada sac no baby inside. So doctor suggest datang lagi 2 minggu untuk check ada heartbeat ke tak. Aku sebagai seorang yang boleh dikatakan time tu jahil and bongok lah. Haha. Aku mengharapkan next scan memang takde heartbeat sebab i'm not ready to be a mom. Jahat. Betul. But when you in my shoes you'll understand why. Haha ewah. So fast forward, after 2 weeks kitorang datang lagi klinik. Doctor scan, there's a heartbeat! Tapi bukan 1! There's 2 heartbeat! Hahaha bulat mata aku pandang doctor and aiman masa doctor bagitahu ada dua time tu. My baby really love to surprise her mommy. Balik tu kitorang dua orang termenung lagi, hahaha. Tak cukup 1. 2 Dia bagi. Tapi another one tu dia punya heartbeat really faint macam tak berapa strong like the other one. So doctor suruh repeat scan another two weeks. So another 2 weeks kitorang datang scan, 2 different gestational sac ada, but only one baby je ada. Time ni aku dah redha aku mengandung, kira macam dah terima takdir lah. Lepas tu jadi sedih sikit bila tahu my twins is no longer a twin. 

It's called vanishing twin syndrome where salah satu twin went missing without dia keluar from the uterus. So another twin tu akan serap nutrient yang that vanish twin tu tinggalkan. So after that confirmation, we both proceed our pregnancy seperti biasa. Pergi checkup and everything. Aku layan morning sickness every night. Ye, morning sickness aku waktu malam. Hahaha pagi aku cargas ya, mungkin sebab baru masuk kerja and environment kerja baru. Morning sickness aku include tak boleh bau Aiman. Haha dia cam aiman dekat pun i kenot. Haha kesian Aiman sampai kena tukar bodywash, ubat gigi and deodorant pun kena tukar hshshs. But it only last until week ke-14 cam tu je. Masuk 2nd trimester aku dah normal. Boleh makan almost semua benda, dah takde muntah muntah. Boleh jalan sana sini. Tu yang kemain berjalan tu hahaha.

But, the happiness didnt last long. At week 33 aku dah start develop another symptom pregnancy yang aku tak boleh tahan. Gatal gatal. Gatal gatal ni buat aku sampai tak tido malam babe. 2 kali aku pergi klinik, doctor only boleh prescribe ubat selsema yang buat mengantuk tu je. At least dia boleh buat aku terlelap sekejap la malam malam instead of layan gatal gatal tu. But then, since i need to go to work, dan aku selalu tak dapat tido malam. So next checkup aku bagitahu doctor yang aku ada masalah gatal gatal sampai tak boleh tidur malam. Then, dia gatal gatal specifically dekat tapak kaki and tapak tangan. Waktu malam dia akan jadi extra panas and gatal nak mampus. So doctor decide untuk aku ambil ujian darah untuk check maybe there's another thing tapi kita tak tahu. Lepas tu, esoknya hospital called, cakap specialist nak jumpa regarding my blood test result. Aku dah cuak dah and at the same time dah expect something. Sebab before tu aku pernah baca beberapa journal pasal simptom aku ni punca dia apa and everything. So aku aware about obstetric cholestasis which that gatal gatal ada related with liver problem....

Sampai dekat hospital, aku jumpa specialist nama Dr Ummul. Dia consult lah aku dengan Aiman pasal result darah tu. She said everything was fine butttttt ada certain enzyme that my liver produce ada terlebih sikit dari yang sepatutnya. Which that really dangerous lah since aku pregnant and everything. In fact dia boleh leads to early birth or sudden death for the baby. So Dr Ummul suruh kitorang refer government hospital on the same day. So, aku dengan Aiman pun pergi la Hospital Klang. Which we both pun tak tahu why we choose Hospital Klang instead of Hospital Shah Alam. Maybe sebab aku selalu dengar pasal orang complaint service Hospital Shah Alam kot. Hahaha. So pergi la Hospital Klang dekat emergency department as out-patient. Pastu doctor yang ada dekat sana macam pelik la kenapa aku sebab gatal gatal je nak datang hospital en apa semua. Hahaha so aku pun bagi la referral letter apa semua. Then, dorang check check then decide nak ambil result darah juga. Then turn out result darah tu dapat bacaan lagi worst compared to yang aku buat previously. So dorang refer aku ke doctor obgyn. Doctor obgyn dah check and consult apa semua, aku kena warded on the same day............so here's the starting point where aku rasa pregnancy aku sangat la rasa payah dan susah :').

Punyalah lama service government ni, aku ada dekat emergency department tu pukul 3 petang, aku dapat masuk ward pukul 11 malam. Lama teroxx kitorang menunggu process nya. Tapi aku dah start cam sedih la sikit sebab kena tidur ward sorang sorang. Masa tu aku mengharapkan esok lusa aku balik la kot. Hahaha anda silap! Aku warded hari ahad bersamaan 12 Jun 2022. Aku dapat discharge 16 June 2022. Even birthday pun aku celebrate dalam hospital. Sedih teruk. 5 hari aku duduk hospital, hari hari rasa nak nangis sebab dapat jumpa aiman waktu melawat je. Bukan nak nangis, memang memalam aku menangis pun. Hahaha. Hari hari aku tanya doctor and nurse bila aku boleh discharge. Apa plan dorang untuk aku sampai tahan lama lama dalam ward. So bila dorang dah buat semua test which is, blood test memang hari hari la babe. Pastu dorang ada buat ultrasound scan nak tengok hati aku. Then buat serum bile acid test and etc etc. Lepas dah settle tu semua then baru la aku dibenarkan discharge. Itupun lepas aku dah merayu rayu nak balik. Huhu. Tapi aku balik berserta warning lah, yang aku memang kena alert with baby punya movement and everything. So dapat balik rumah aku rasa cam ya allah happy gila. Tak kisah la seminggu 2 kali kena pergi checkup pun, asalkan aku tido and duduk dekat rumah and ada Aiman. 

Again, that happiness doesnt last long. At 36 weeks, aku ada checkup dengan pakar hati. After checkup tu, doctor obgyn called. She suggest me to warded on the spot sebab dah 36 weeks and boleh deliver anytime. In fact dorang nak monitor aku closely. Lepas habis phone call tu, aku terus nangis tersedu sedu babe. Tanak masuk ward, hahaha. Tapi doctor dah suggest untuk aku induce. So nak tanak memang kena warded. Means dalam 2-3 hari maybe aku akan bersalin secara paksa. So lepas checkup dengan Hepato tu aku pun balik rumah nak prepare bag hospital. This time kena packing baju baby sekali. Hahaha sounds cute right? tapi aku seharian tu menangis. Hahaha. Tapi sebelum nak warded Aiman sempat la bawak aku pergi Aeon Bukit Tinggi makan dakgalbi untuk lunch. Huhu. Pastu lepas lunch tu terus serah diri, time Aiman nak balik tinggalkan aku warded tu lagi sekali aku nangis teruk sambil peluk Aiman. Haha. Masa tu macam macam rasa ada. Nervous, takut, give up dengan pregnancy pun ada. But then Aiman pujuk, dia cakap lagi beberapa hari je lagi baby nak keluar. Lepas tu dah, everything will be okay. So aku pun akurrrr. 

So that's almost the end of my pregnancy journey. Seterusnya kena sambung labour journey pulak lah. Hahaha sebab dah panjang teruk post ni. Kalau aku rajin aku sambung labour journey pulak okay guys. Kita akhiri post pregnancy journey ni dengan wassalam. Kita berjumpa lagi di post akan datang. Agitcheww. hahaha

Saturday, April 4, 2020

Stay At Home

Hi everyone,

Hi everything? haha. If I ever read this sentence again in the future, I just want to remind myself that's the phrase yang viral sekarang. Hihi

Okie, again hi. I can't sleep at the moment because baru lepas merajuk dengan aiman. Haha, it's not a serious shit. Don't worry. Actually my sleeping pattern is not a pattern anymore, it's a freestyle. Haha all my life I never thought ill face something serious shit like this. Right now Malaysia is in Restriction Movement Order (RMO) due to virus Covid-19. I know it sounds wow gempak gila and bij what's that? Aha! I bet you don't wanna face this thing in your life ever. It's sucks. Today is RMO Day-18. Another 10 days to go if we manage to flatten the curve to fight this virus. It's scary actually but at the same time I'm already annoyed with it. I wanna go out and mingle around. I wanna see my parents dekat kampung, and I wanna see my baby. But I cannot because of this virus. As a responsible person, I wouldn't want to risk the people around me just because of my selfishness. So right now we all need to stay at home.

Actually, that's not what I wanna talk about. In fact, I don't have any specific topic to talk about right now haha because I don't know. 17 days at home doing nothing, haihh. Haha but yea we can talk about my current life. I manage to secure a job as a bank teller at the airport. But because of this RMO, we all need to stay at home so my company does not operate at the moment. In fact aku takde work from home juga since my job related with customer service. So dekat rumah aku nak attend customer mana haha.

I'm missing everyone. Especially my mom and dad. Homesick. Aku takde selera makan sebab homesick. I can't get a proper sleep because I keep on overthinking every night. Other than homesick maybe sebab rindu aiman juga. Nasib baik dapat jumpa exactly the day our PM announced about the RMO, that's the day we decide nak dating makan kyochon haha. So it's already 17 days tak jumpa, windu :(. Kalau tak every week mesti jumpa sekali sebab Sepang and Shah alam is not that far hihu.

So let's just hope the best for Malaysia right now. The case getting higher everyday, the number of death also increasing. Minta dijauhkan musibah wabak ni kena dekat my family and my circle. We might need to cancel our raya this year. In fact, nak tunggu another 10 days ni pun tak sure, entah entah they'll lengthen this RMO to make sure the virus can be contained.

So guys, aku rasa macam dah takde apa aku nak rant. Dah tua ni dia dah jadi macam lagi noob nak bercerita panjang panjang. Unless face to face. Or maybe kalau ada benda boleh bawak gaduh, haa itu tetibe aku boleh jadi Dr of philosophy onion. Entah apa aku merepek haha. Dah tua ni juga aku dah semakin hambar and lack of sense of humor. Or maybe right now I'm not in that mood for it. Yea, esok nak pukul aiman sebab buat aku merajuk. Get ready untuk layan aku punya annoying, hihi.

Okie, goodnight everyone. Don't forget to wash your hand. Stay safe and most important is S T A Y A T H O M E!

#KitaJagaKita.

Assalamualaikum.
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